Through messages from my body this weekend, I was told to 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳. My impatience was made to bow down to the higher forces that told me to eat my own advice 🤣 𝗦𝗲𝗹𝗳 𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗲. Not always easy. I am a natural do-er, with a tendency towards people pleasing (working on it!). There were things I was excited to do, appointments to be had, patients to see...
Once I let go of trying to force things, to hold things in place, 2020 gave me the lesson (again 🙃) of not being afraid to let things fall, to pause, and to pick things up again later. In the meantime, I was asked to reflect on…
2020 has shaken my vision. Perhaps yours, too. But life isn’t supposed to always go to according to plan. Though the path ahead still isn’t clear to me, that's ok. What became clear to me this weekend was a reminder of what I do have: 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯. Without leaving my house, I had phone calls and laughs and cries with people I love, and was able to appreciate 𝘴𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘴.
Staying reminded of that, some of the rest doesn’t matter as much.
When you surrender, it’s easier to see the gifts of the present.
What are you grateful for? What are your 𝙨𝙞𝙢𝙥𝙡𝙚 𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙪𝙧𝙚𝙨? 💝
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I am pausing my practice. For 2 weeks (for now)*.
I write this only hours after my last post. Because I can’t ignore the little voice. The little voice inside me that says ‘Do what you feel is right’. The little voice inside me that says ‘I’d rather be safe than sorry’. The little voice inside me that shouts ‘Bravo!’ when others I admire for their integrity are suspending their practices.
My little voice is not necessarily your little voice. And that is okay.
Despite spending countless hours reading countless articles debating best approaches to dealing with COVID-19 // Despite being someone who is generally most comfortable in the middle ground // Despite not being sure what's more contagious - the virus or the closures // Despite not being personally afraid of being sick (yet recognizing there are others at risk and wanting to ease the burden on our health care system) // Despite being self-employed and unsure of how to pay rent for the indefinite future... the little voice keeps saying, ‘Do it anyway.’
It guides me towards setting the example that feels most right for me, for now. My moral compass.
I will be contacting everyone with private appointments in the next two weeks to reschedule.
*In the interim I will be offering telemedicine for those who could benefit from herbal consultations, and/or self-administered guided acupressure sessions.
Thank you for your understanding. Be well, and I hope to see you before too long.
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It’s been a H E A V Y couple of weeks. For many.
I don’t always have the right words. But I see you. I see you. I see the pain. I see the grief. I see the frustration. I see how hard you are working to try to heal. How you’re doing all the right things. Going to appointment after appointment. Getting all the tests. Doing all the exercises. Craving sugar but eating “all the [bleepin’] hummus!”. That your body is behaving in ways you don’t understand. That people you love are dying. That old traumas are coming to light. That there is a part of you that will never be as it was. I see that there’s more responsibility on you than you feel you can handle. That Toronto’s rents are out of control. That you’re afraid. That a family member is struggling. I see that you are in a toxic workplace and each day you take your big brave hurting heart to work again and try to focus. I see how hard you’re being on yourself in the process. I see how far you’ve come on the days where you feel lost. I see how much you’re learning. I see the beauty in the spirit of your emotion. I see your kindness. I see your values. Your integrity. Your dedication to showing up for yourself, and for others.
I don’t always know what to say. But I see you. That’s something you can say to someone, too. When they need it. When it feels like no one sees how hard they’re work they’re doing. Or recognizes their talents. Or understands that they’re struggling. If you see them, that’s something you can offer.
I’m privileged to hold space when this kind of stuff comes up in a session. I’m grateful to have something to offer, through body work, through Chinese medicine, and at the very least a listening heart. To support the body & mind through all that you are carrying. To help change a moment. However small or big of a difference it makes in a day. Week. Year. Life.
I’m going to go do some self care now. I’ll be ready again tomorrow.
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I went to a retreat to begin 2020. It was intimate, and heart-centred. We reflected on 2019. We grounded in the present. We got dreamy about 2020. There was vulnerability: shared, witnessed, held, honoured. Visions & goals celebrated. I helped get me in the head/heart space, or the *feeling-space* inside me - that I’d like to come home to as the year goes along.
It’s amazing how a supportive group can lift each other up. I did not grow up with these types of friendships. It was not safe to be myself in my peer group, not safe to take up space. I’m blessed with some real connections in my life now, and yet it still takes conscious effort to unlearn the anxiety of simply being, especially in a group. When I do, and it goes well, it’s 💥💗💗💗💥
Our host Lauren, a dear friend of mine, had a journal waiting in each of our rooms. Each journal featured a different pattern, and she aptly chose mine: the phases of the moon (thanks, LV). I’m pulling it out again on this snowy weekend.
Part of what the moon represents is our emotional life. Instead of a task, what’s a *feeling* you’d like to carry with you through the year? What home-base sensation would you like to live in? It’s pretty much guaranteed that the year will throw you off course at times. But we spend so much time worrying about what we don’t want, that I’m asking myself - and you - to shift that into: what feeling DO I want? What am I coming home to, inside? It could be a word, a nameless sensation in your body, or a practice - like gratitude, perhaps. If you’d like to share, I’ll be your witness. I’ll celebrate this intention and help steer you back there, anytime you need it. .
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